A Real Job!

I have been ushering for the Cornell Cinema since around the second half of first semester, and was just giving up hope of acquiring a payed position at the theater, when, low and behold, I got an email from the cinema manager informing me of a box office position that has just opened up.  He asked if I was interested, and I had to restrain from responding with HECK YES!  So, starting next week, I will be working, as a paid employee, at the Cornell Cinema.  YAY!

So far, this semester is going wonderfully.  I got started on my work early, and am now right on schedule with homework and reading, maybe even a little bit ahead.  I've been spending a lot of time with my fellow chorus members, and last weekend we had two 3 hour and one 4 hour rehearsals.  I've been keeping on track with my Weight Watchers points, and I even went to the gym on Monday with a friend.

I'm feeling pretty great right now.  I will admit, I should probably be working on some homework that is due tomorrow.  However, instead of having an entire assignment left to do (as was was usual last semester the night before homework was due) I only have two small sections of problems left.  Then I think I'll read some of my Chemistry and Math textbooks, just to be prepared for tomorrow's lectures, and I'll be all set!

I also feel great because I posted another video on YouTube today, and I rather like this one.  It took some time, and I think it's one of my best yet.

I have a meeting on Tuesday with Engineering advising regarding my possible transfer to Arts & Sciences.  Hopefully they'll let me know what I need to do to transfer, what my chances are of being accepted with my grades from last semester, and who I can talk to within arts that will help me with this process.  I'm still thinking of film, but it's not definite.  I'll get back to you.

Oh, I almost forgot to mention, I got my hairs cut!  It's a bit past shoulder length, and I now have some bangs.  I quite like it, and I've gotten a lot of compliments.  All in all, I'm feeling just splendid!  And I hope you are too =D

Okay, well, I'm off!

It's been swell!

School?

I am back at school now.  This is a very good thing for a lot of reasons, like spending time with awesome friends, the delicious food here at Cornell, and retuning to the awesome community that is chorus.  However, there are also some not so great things about being back at school.  I've got quite the schedule this semester, and although I will be dropping one class (not sure which yet), it will still require a lot of work.  In order to succeed this semester, I am going to have to follow a tight schedule to keep me on task, because I have ADD, and last semester was just shy of a nightmare (academically that is.  I quite enjoyed myself in general).  So, while I know school will be great in some ways, I can't help wishing I had just a LITTLE more time at home.

The summer program in Europe that I mentioned is a very strong possibility.  I emailed the man in charge, and he said he thinks I would be a good candidate for it.  I just have to wait for the applications to come around, apply, and see how that goes.  I also have to decide which program I want to do (or decide to do both).  The first one, which goes from May 26th to July 3rd, begins in Dublin and moves to Paris, Barcelona, and Marseille, and the second runs July 4th to August 1st and takes place in Rome.  I thought the second one would be more relevant to me, but the guy suggested doing either.  I really love how the first involves so many different cities, all of which I've never been to, so now I'm leaning more towards that one.

I would also love to do a bit of traveling afterwards, and of course that would have to be in England.  I mean, I'm in love with the place and I haven't even been there.  I think I should see if it's as great as I think it is, ya know?

So, summer traveling is a very very likely possibility, which makes me very happy and gives me something to work towards.

And now, I will look into my classes to see if there's anything I can do to get ahead.

It's been dandy!

I was born
I was born to be with you
in this space and time
after that
and ever after

My phone is officially a lost cause.  We happened to have a brand new phone sitting around the house, same as my phone but green instead of blue, and that is now my phone.  I'm glad to have the replacement, but I will honestly miss the other one.  I loved my blue phone.  

I am leaving for Cornell TOMORROW! Woooaaahhhh!!! I'm kinda scared.  I'm thinking about dropping a class to lighten my load, but I want to talk to my advisor first, so we'll see how that goes.

There's a program with Cornell over the summer that focuses on theater, film, and dance, and since I've been very interested in film lately, I thought it might be a good idea.  Best part?  It takes place in ROME!  HOLY FREAKING FISH STICKS!  I'm not yet sure if I will be doing it, but it's definitely a strong possibility.  We'll see how that goes.

Look what I got in the mail a few days ago:

=D (although, I'm kinda upset the picture is reversed. Darn photobooth)

That's all I got to say for now.  I'm gonna make this a very regular thing, and hopefully share this with some of my friends, ya know, so that I'm not talking just to myself...

I LOVE YOU, you lovely, lovely person

Back to school or something

I have two days left here at home, and then I'll be heading back to Cornell for another semester of doom...I mean, engineering.  I'm having issues deciding what I want to study, but I think I've found a potential major.  I am seriously thinking about majoring in film.  I mean, film has always been a significant part of my life, as my father is a huge film guy.  For many years he had his own video business and worked part time at a small, local movie theater before eventually purchasing the theater.  That's the one I mentioned in my last blog (obviously.  I mean, one man can't own two theaters...can he?)

I basically grew up in front of a camera, and when I came of a fairly responsible age (10) I received a camcorder for my birthday, and have since had a strange fascination with recording and editing video.

Now, in order to succeed in engineering, you have to really want it, because it is rough.  But from the start, I knew that it wasn't really what I wanted.  Cornell has 7 separate colleges, and when applying, you are allowed to apply to 2 if you so choose.  I had applied to arts & sciences because my plan was originally to study music, and then it changed to math, and then I was rather undecided, but Cornell said they recommended I apply to engineering as well, based on my application.  So, that's the one I got into, and that's the one I'm dying to get out of.

I had an open mind going in, because I've always loved math and physics, and that's reason enough that I'll enjoy engineering, right? WRONG!!  It was rough, and while I did make it through without failing, I received the lowest grades I've ever received...ever.  The grades were understandable, since college is a heck of a lot different than high school, but the whole semester was a struggle because I had to work my butt off for something I really didn't want.

Thus, I have been stressing out lately over what it is I DO want to study.  Physics is still an option, because I actually loved my physics class last semester (despite my B-) and my mother brought up psychology as a possibility, which I thought would be a very interesting field of study.  But lately, I've been leaning towards the film option, because it seems the most like something I wouldn't mind working hard for.

If you asked me what I wanted to do in the future, I would say acting.  Although I haven't had much experience with acting, when I am given the opportunity, I love it.  But I just feel like that's not a possibility, and so I have to pour myself into something I'm half-hearted about.  Oh well, we'll see.  All I can do right now is do my best in the classes I'm taking, find a job and make some money, and pray that God will help me in my decision making and make things clearer to me.

It's been lovely!!

Potential music overload

My cousin's birthday was yesterday, and to celebrate, we all went to a place called just fun that has arcade games, a little indoor playground-type thing, and a few other fun activities for children.  Gonna be honest, I had a LITTLE too much fun there.  Then, to finish off the night with a bang, we stayed the night...at a movie theater!  Let me explain this.  My parents own a small, old fashioned, one screen theater called the Hamburg Palace Theatre.  It is AWESOME!  So last night, I slept in a sleeping bag, on top of a thin mattress, to the sounds of Furry Vengeance (a movie that had absolutely no impact on my life, except that I kinda wanted the time I spent watching it back).  So basically, I'm tired, and I'm in the projection booth of a movie theater.  Be jealous...well, of the second part.

I found my missing pair of pants, but my cell phone was not in the pockets.  This means my phone is still MIA.  I'm hoping to find it today.

In other news, I have an overload of money for iTunes, and I don't know what to spend it on.  The holidays have left me with $170 in iTunes cards (one $50 card was from last year, but it got lost, and was found a few days ago).  So basically, I can purchase whatever music I want, but I already have all the music that I want.  I know over time I'll hear other songs that I want to download and I will slowly but surely go through my cards, but I'm hoping to get some suggestions from my friends and family.

All of this iTunes money proposes a very serious problem:  I currently have less than 1 GB empty on my iPod.  I'm not exactly sure how much music I'll be able to add to it, but with a combination of the cards and the songs from CDs I'll most likely want to upload, I'm gonna need a new iPod.  I knew the 8 GB wasn't gonna be sufficient in the long run.  Poor George, he has served me well the past 2 years.  George is my iPod, by the way...

So now I have a bunch of things I'm saving up for:  a new iPod, a midi keyboard for my macbook, final cut express, and whatever I do this summer (I'm hoping a trip to England).  Now I just gotta find a job on campus...I currently volunteer at the cinema, and while I get to see the movies for free, which is nice, I do not get paid.  I really need to find a PAYING job, heh.  

That's all for now, folks.  See ya next time on fourbackwards's blog!

Oh where oh where could my cell phone be?

Today, my mom decided that I would spend the ENTIRE DAY looking for my cell phone because, well, I lost it.  I have a theory as to where it could be, and this theory brings up another missing item.  It's all just a big mystery case, and I'm going to solve it.  Here's the dealio:

I first noticed my cell phone was missing earlier this week, probably like, Monday or Tuesday.  I had been going without it for about a week before that, but the reason I didn't classify it as lost then was because I THOUGHT I knew where it was.  That whole week I was under the assumption that it was in the pocket of a pair of my pants that was sitting on my bedroom floor.  But alas, we all know what happens when you assume.  So I checked all three pairs on the floor.  Nothing.  I checked everywhere I thought it might be.  Nothing.  So I was stumped, until I realized something else.

Now around the same time I noticed my phone was gone, I also realized that my favorite pair of pants was also missing.  I'm not exactly sure of the last time I wore them, but the last time I REMEMBER wearing them two weeks ago, the day I stayed the night with my aunt and cousins at a hotel.  I would say maybe I left them there, but the sleepover was last minute and I didn't have a change of clothes, so they were the only pair of pants I had, and there is no way I would go pants-less in this weather...

So today, I came to the conclusion that the phone must be in the pocket of that pair of pants.  I remember putting all my jeans in the wash together, except for the pair I was wearing, which must've been said pair, and that day was definitely after the hotel, so wherever I put the pants at the end of that day has somehow lead to where they are now.  And if my new theory is right, wherever the pants are is where the phone is.

So, to figure this out, I've decided to resort to my video camera.  I take lots of video, so I figured I would check the footage to see if I have anything recorded from the last time I wore those pants, to jog my memory as to where I left them when I took them off...geez, I sound like a slut or something.  When I say I don't remember where I took them off, I mean at the end of the day when I put on my pajamas.

Hopefully I will be able to solve this mystery and be able to communicate with the world once more!

It's been swell!!

You just gotta ignite the light
and let it shine
just own the night
like the 4th of July

Buh-buh-buh-braaaaainstorming!

Today is yet another day in my winter break in which I sit at home and do nothing of any particular importance and think of things I could be doing right now.  I decided to blog a little list of some creative-type ideas I have for the future, especially regarding my musical future and my YouTube videos.  There's been some things that I've wanted to create a video about, but I get too caught up in my talking and end up not putting as much into my videos as I was hoping to do, so here are some of my ideas that I still want to carry out:

1)  The unrealistic expectations society has for girls.

Basically, all people are different, and it's not fair that we are taught to believe what we are born with is not beautiful.  I am particularly outraged by expectations for body type/weight and things like eyebrows, makeup, and lip/other facial hair.  Guys say all the time that they want a girl who is confident, but how can you expect them to be confident when the same guys are judging girls on their appearance and labeling them as hot or ugly??  Disgusting.

2)  Awkward dance moves

I often find myself in the middle of awkward situations, and since I'm no good at de-awkward-ifying things, I rely heavily on playing up the awkward and making it comical.  It works...sometimes.  One particular case where this technique comes into play quite often is when I'm at a dance or just dancing around with friends or family.  Sometimes, I can dance decently, but sometimes I just can't, so instead of looking accidentally ridiculous, I have a set of overly awkward dance moves that I pull out when I don't know what else to do.  I thought I would share them with the world...

3)  Montage of 2010

I have a little camcorder that I take EVERYWHERE with me, and as a result, I have lots of footage of things that happened throughout the year, some of which is really funny.  I want to make a little montage of this footage, but I have so much that it wouldn't fit into one video.  Therefore, I thought I would make a few different montages, strategically planned so that there is a common theme among the footage involved in each.  I was thinking maybe like, one of just my brother, one of other members of my family, a holidays one, one of just my Aunt Care, random funny things, and I don't know what else.  The only problem is, a lot of them have sound that I would want included, but some I would be okay with having a song playing in the background.  So yeah, that's a work in progress.

4)  Odd things that I love

Just a list of the strange quirks of me, and the weird things that I love.

5)  Music videos

not sure what songs to use yet, and I gotta do it before I leave, because I need my family for these

6)  5 minutes of nonsense

Something I started when I was about 10 years old.  I just talked in front of a camera for 5 minutes about whatever I felt like talking about, and it was actually quite funny.  I think I'll try it again.

And then, some other, non-video ideas:

1)  Booklet thinger for my ex-roommate Tara

I've already started this, I just need to pull myself together enough to finish

2)  The Lion Sleeps Tonight

I started recording myself doing all the parts to this song on garage band, but I have no way of doing the little bongo drums, or the other drums in the background.  AND last night listening to it, I notice a little bass line that I never noticed before.  Basically, I'm still working on how to portray the non-vocal stuff.

3)  Learn to play guitar

I got a guitar a while back for Christmas, and I really want to play it.  I just don't know how.  So, I'm gonna try and learn, whether it be by taking lessons, watching a tutorial, or getting some sort of book.  I'm going to learn to play guitar.

4) Improve on the piano, and then learn to play songs that I like

pretty self explanatory


So there you have it.

It's been swell!

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
sayin' eyo, gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life
sayin' eyo, baby let's go

So...how do I do this?

Welp, here I am at 12:30 in the morning, typing on my computer while the rest of the house sleeps.  Typical.

I keep thinking "Why did I decide to do this?" but I know the reason: I talk to much for normal conversation, and I talk to much for vlogging, so this is my last resort.  Seriously though, I struggle to cut down 20 minutes of video to a length that won't bore to death the 4 people who watch my videos (all of whom are close friends).  I posted a video the other day that was 7 and 3/4 minutes long, because there was no way possible to trim it down to fit my 2-4.5 minutes rule (because any longer than that and you lose your audience...or at least that's what I assume).

So, what to write, what to write...?  Well, I could write about my day I suppose.

I woke up at 11:30, bummed around a bit, ate some food, took a shower, and went to the doctors because I'm a mess.  At least I thought I was.  The doctor basically told me that I might have a slight sinus infection, and everything else I mentioned was nothing.  Yeah, lovely.

I wanted to talk more in depth about me and my mom joining weight watchers...again.  The points system is different than it used to be, and I am a fan of the new system.  Today I ate an amazing sandwich and a friut smoothie for just 5 points, which was DELISH (like delicious, without the ous) and a tasty and quite satisfying dinner.  After all this, I still had 9 points left.  Basically, they re-evaluated everything based on how the body processes different foods, so now, all fresh fruit and most veggies are no points. Oh sorry, pointsPLUS.  I really think this will help me because I tend to go for foods that are high in fat, and rarely eat veggies of my own choice.  However, today, I found myself actually wanting to eat the vegetables because I knew I wouldn't have to write it down. So basically, I'll lose weight because of my own laziness...ironic.

So, I leave for Cornell next Thursday, and honestly, I don't want to go back.  I'm stuck in Engineering right now because I missed the transfer deadline, so I'll be taking classes that I DON'T need and that I DON'T want to take.  But I guess there's really nothing I can do except do my best in these classes and figure out what I want to instead of engineering. Hmph, I've gotta figure that out soon.

Interesting thinger I'd like to point out.  About 7 years ago, I read the first three Harry Potter books (probably over the course of a year, since I was a SLOW reader) and when I began the fourth, I just never finished.  I mean, I was only 11, and that book is big.  I guess I was just intimidated.  Now, I say why this random information is relevant.  I decided that I really needed to go back and read all of the books, because I mean, I had to see what all the hype was about, so I told myself that I would read as much of the series as I could over winter break and...I ACTUALLY followed through!  I'm now about a third through Goblet of Fire, which is farther than I made it last time.  And as for my verdict thus far, umm...WHY DID I WAIT THIS LONG TO READ THESE BOOKS?!??? Holy pocket lint, I love Harry Potter.  I really REALLY want to go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal Studios.

Speaking of places I really want to go to...I have a BIT of an obsession with everything from England.  I mean, not really EVERYTHING, but my favorite band is from England, and so is my second favorite band, I LOVE English accents, I love English YouTubers...umm, I can't think of anything else right now, but honestly, I've wanted to go to England for like, 2 years now, and I really really want to either study there this summer, or just plan a trip for the summer.  But it has to be this summer, I can't wait any longer.

Speaking of things that can't get any longer, would ya' look at the length of this blog post???

Okay, well, peace out.  Talk to you later, goodbye, it's been swell, or something...

It's been great, dandy, swell, spiffy, lovely, snazzy

dunno which one I like best.  I'll figure it out as I go

OKAY BYE FOR REAL THIS TIME!