Not Another One

Do you know what is really energy-draining?  When you are just starting to like someone.  Yes, LIKE them like them.  It pulls in a lot of your attention, taking a lot of focus away from some very important things (like schoolwork).  It meddles with your priorities, to the point where you get excited about certain things because they have to do with him, and suddenly you're not even sure what your motivation is for doing things anymore.  And for people like me, who can be a little intense about things, these symptoms get pretty bad.

I am aware that starting to like someone can cause these problems, which was why I was kinda glad that I didn't have any MAJOR crushes starting this semester.  But of course, I can't avoid falling for someone, it's one of my tragic flaws.

I'm really frustrated about it because it's like, the fourth time it's happened within the last month and a half.  There was bowling guy, there was Hank Green look-alike, there was another one that was just starting about a week ago, and now, there's this one.  And I can tell from the start what kind of "crush" it's gonna be from the start.  Bowling guy, I talk to, but it's not a real intense like-age, I just think he's uber attractive.  Hank Green look-alike, well it really started because he looked like Hank Green, and that was a really intense far distance like-age, not really bound to go anywhere, but I was hoping to try and take it somewhere, ya know, at least meet him.  But this one...it's different.

UGGGHHH, I already have so much going on, I don't have room in my brain for liking someone, especially someone who I am actually kinda friends with who I see on a bi-weekly basis, who my friends actually KNOW, who I hung out with a LOT this weekend.

It's funny, I complain so much, but that feeling, as badly timed as it may be, well it's not all bad.

Isn't it kinda scary how you fall for people?  I mean this guy, I had met him, didn't really think much of him, ya know, he seems nice, he's not particularly attractive, but I mean, he's not bad.  But all of a sudden, I don't even remember when, but all of a sudden I liked him, and it totally took me by surprise.  Sheesh!

What really scares me about it is, with the "others" of the semester,  I liked them all simultaneously, in varying degrees depending on who I was around.  But now, now it's just him.  I've immediately forgotten about the others.  Not forgotten, but I just, I don't care anymore.  It's gonna be one of those.  Another "I can't see any other guys around me because they are not him" kinda thing.  Oh well.  Maybe I'll pursue him.  I think it's worth it.  He's a really nice guy.  Example: me and my friend were really cold when we were all outside (even though we had coats on) and he took his jacket off and offered it to us, and tried to drape it around us. And he was only wearing a T-shirt!  I told him we were fine, we were just complaining, and that he would freeze to death (and then he rubbed snow on his stomach to prove me wrong, of course).  Idk, he's just, I don't even know...

Anyways, I can't tell anyone because they know him, and it's just too weird, because we're all so close, so me liking one of them would make it awkward. I dee kay...

Anywho, it's been swell, and I love you a whole heck of a lot!!

LAAAAHHHHVVV!!!

I've had enough

Right now, I'm avoiding writing an essay because I really am not ready to write it.  Problem?  It's due tomorrow in class at 8:40 am.  Not so bad, right?  Pull through, write in little chunks, plan it out a bit, revise as I go, and BAM, a fairly decent essay finished by 3 am at the latest.  

But, as always, it's not that simple...

Tomorrow night at 7:30 pm, I have a Chemistry exam, one which I am not prepared for.  Okay, no big D, my classes are done by 11, just head over to the library to study for a few hours, bring a book to allow a little break (ya know, so I don't go insane) and BAM, fairly decent preparedness for my exam.

But once again, not that simple...

Tomorrow, I'm supposed to meet with my tutor for Math to go over this week's lessons and homework.  Only problem?  I haven't even looked at the homework yet because my weekend was dedicated to working on my Chemistry homework, and reading for my writing seminar. 

So basically, I'm stressed out, and today didn't make it any better.  I was up until 3:30 am working on my Chem homework that was due today, had to get up early to finish it, and then worked frantically between lecture and lab to finish the assignments I had to turn in at lab, which lasted a whole heck of a lot longer that I would have liked.  

Then, to give myself a little break, I took a bit of a nap at 5-ish, so I would be ready to work on my essay. BUT it lasted longer than it was supposed to, and I only had time to revise my already written thesis statement before a rehearsal tonight.

So basically, I'm pissed off, tired, and working towards things I don't even want.  I have no time to work on my videos, no time to do any of he things I have planned, I don't even have time to read freaking Harry Potter!!! And now, I'm having doubts about transferring out of Engineering.  This scares me a lot because I KNOW I can't deal with another semester on Engineering, it's a nightmare.  UGGGHHHHH! And I didn't turn in the application for Europe, because I didn't have time to fill it out, so that's not happening.  I just don't even know what to think right now, I seriously wish I had a different life right now.

I'm just being pessimistic.  Once tomorrow is over, I'll be a bit more relaxed...I think.  My Aunt Care and cousin Rheanna are coming on Saturday, so that's something to look forward to!!!  And I've lost 12 pounds, so that's a nice, reassuring things going on.

I don't know, if you find yourself in a similar situation as me at some point, let me know.  We can talk about it.

Anyways, I love you, and despite my anxiety and frustration, I'm still loving it here and maintaining my upbeat attitude. 

It's been swell!! Come again soon!

Why I now hate the bus system

Okay, I think it's about time to tell you about my horrible bus experience that I mentioned in my last post.

So, three of my friends and I took a bus down to the Ithaca Commons to buy dresses for VD Ball (Valentine's Day, that is).  The bus was pretty crowded, so we got split up, with two in the middle, and me and my friend Claire in the very back.  Between our two groups was a random guy who apparently was staring at us the whole ride, although I did not notice him at first.

So, I was telling Claire about the guy who looks like Hank Green and how I managed to find him on facebook, and she was talking about the guy from the hockey team who she had found on facebook.  We were casually throwing around the words "stalk" "stalking" and "stalker," but they were just exaggerations.  Neither of us ever ACTUALLY stalked anyone, we were just joking around about it.  In the middle of this, I heard someone talking, and turned to find the random man glaring at us and talking under his breath.

I couldn't understand all of what he said, but what I could make out was something along the lines of "You go stalk someone and then think you know everything about them and go around talking sh**."  At this point, I was terrified.  Claire and I immediately shut up, and I whispered to her asking if she had 911 on speed dial.  The man turned around and faced forward after this, and we calmed down a bit, kind of shaking it off.

However, our other friend turned around and said to us (in an overly preppy voice) "Oh my gosh guys, let's get a fake tan and pink dresses, and then we can be orange and pink!" and we responded "Oh my gosh, yeaahh!!" in the same voices.

And then, without turning around, the man made a gesture at us that I believe to be very rude and offensive.

Now, fortunately, we did not see this man again, but I was really angry.  Why is this man saying rude things and flicking us off?  We had never seen him before, we were not threatening him in any way, what on earth would possess him to do such a ridiculous thing??  Claire and I were going to tell the bus driver, but we wanted to get off that bus so badly, we completely forgot to.

I told someone about this incident, and they said that there are a lot of crazy people in Ithaca, so I have a feeling that he just was mentally unstable.  But still, it was really scary.

Anyways, that's my story, and I'm sticking to it!

Oh, and tomorrow, I am going to meet Hank Green look-alike.  At least, I'm going to try...wish me luck!

It's been quite splendid!  Do come again soon!

Hank Green Look-Alike??

Well, hello there!

Okay, so in my math discussion, there was this guy who immediately reminded me of Hank Green the first time I saw him.  At first, I wasn't sure if it was just me, or if he actually looked like Hank Green, so I asked my friend.  My friend agreed.  I used the Cornell people search to find him, and then I found him on facebook, and now he's my new favorite person.

I know that sounds creepy, but I mean, if you saw someone who looked like Hank Green, wouldn't you do the same???  So now my dilemma is that I'm not sure if I'm in love with this kid simply because he looks like Hank Green, or if I'm in love with this kid who happens to look like Hank Green.

In other news, I spend $60 on books yesterday.  I FINALLY bought the last thee Harry Potter books, and John Green's books.  Only problem is I seriously have no time for non-school related reading.  I haven't even finished Goblet of Fire yet!! (which is KILLING ME!).

My dorm is holding a formal dance next saturday called Valentine's Day Ball (although most refer to it as just VD Ball, which could cause some confusion if you don't know what it's supposed to stand for).  Yesterday I went shopping with some friends for a dress, and I got this really pretty red dress with sparkles on it that falls to just above my knees.

Also, the bus ride before the shopping involved an incident where I was seriously afraid for my life, but that will take some more time to explain, so I'll leave that for my next post.

I wonder if I'm ever going to let my friends know about this blog, or if it's going to continue being my own personal online talking to myself fest...

Anyways, it's been lovely!

I love you, you lovely lovely person!

Overanalyzing, as usual

I've been thinking an awful lot lately about rather profound things, and I'm not sure yet how I feel about them.  I was reading a mystery story by Edgar Allen Poe for my writing seminar last night, and the main character of this story is highly logical and observant.  The idea is brought up that a man, who is a poet, is a fool, simply because he is a poet, and poets are fools.  The highly logical character admits to being a poet himself, and this in a way dispels the idea that all poets are fools.  However, later we find out that the poet is also a mathematician and therefore must be quite logical, seeing as he is both a poet and a mathematician.  I was agreeing with him until I reached a certain point where he basically says that if he were just a mathematician, he would not have that sense of logic, and goes on to explain that mathematics and physical sciences don't deal with realistic things, but rather idealized formulas and models.

At first I was offended, seeing as I've always been a big math and science person.  But lately, I've been having my doubts about all this stuff.  Don't get me wrong, I still love love LOVE science, but now that I'm in chemistry and we're talking about accuracy and precision and all and doing experiments in lab, I just don't feel the same as I once did.

I get excited when I learn something in science, something that I can see in action right before my eyes, and can recreate.  I love how you can hear someone talk about rotational motion and angular momentum, and then see it ACTUALLY WORK when someone throws a bowling ball and it curves ever so nicely when it hits that last few feet of the lane.  I love how when you spin in a spinny chair and suddenly pull your legs in, you spin faster.  I love how you can read about how two substances react together, and then when you mix them, they actually change colors.  I love finding out how our world works, because it is one incredible and complex world.

But that's just the thing.  It is indeed very complex; too complex, in fact, for our human minds to understand EVERYTHING about it.  It is incredible; unbelievably beautiful, and it all fits together so perfectly.  If it is so complex and incredible (incredible coming from the latin word for believe and the prefix in, basically meaning not, in this case at least) then why are we trying so hard to fit it into an equation?  This is what I've been thinking about lately.

In Chemistry, I keep reading about significant figures, precise measurements, and how certain accepted values are not pinpoint exact.  We then use these non-exact values with measurements that certainly aren't exact, because there is always some error, and we get answers that are very close to other data recorded before, but it's never exact.  Basically, I just am wondering what the point of my education in these subject areas is if nothing is definite.  I feel that going out there and experiencing things, having guided experiences with physical concepts and chemical interactions, provides more useful information than reading a textbook, because when you read the textbook, you expect exactness, whereas if you go out there and see it done, you know not to expect it to be exact to our equations.

I'm not really sure what I'm trying to say.  I think basically, I'm challenging ideas that I've had for quite a long time.  I've always found math and science to be very objective, with one right answer, and equations that accurately measure real things.  But I'm realizing now that nothing when applied to real life is ever objective, other than things like 2 + 2.  But then again, 2 + 2 is something that we as humans created.  I think the reason that I am so unsure about myself all the time is that I understand that nothing can ever truly be exactly predicted, other than 2 + 2.  I often don't share my opinions about things because I don't have strong enough opinions about very many things, mainly because there is truly no way to make then black or white.  Before beginning an argument, I involuntarily go through every possible justification against me, and sometimes I simply keep to myself because I cannot clearly argue against EVERY claim against my idea, even before anyone else mutters a word against me.

I find people who are very sure they know things and are very closed minded to other possibilities to be very foolish.  I myself believe certain things to be definite and for sure, but have entertained the thought that maybe they are not, and this is why I can be so sure of these things.  One of these is God.  I cannot find any explanation that fits any better than God.  Another thing that I am sure of is that there is a very complex and absolute truth, and while we can fathom some of it, other bits simply can't be contained in our minds.  And the final thing is, that we as humans will never be able to explain everything on our own, and in order to go out and obtain knowledge in any field, we must first understand that we will never understand everything.

Just a warning: this is just the beginning stages of my thought process on this.  I may change some of the things I've said in a later post, but this is how I see it for now.  I hope I didn't scare you away

I would also like to note that I by no means think of myself as some sort of genius, and I do hope that that's not how I came across in this blog post.  umm, yeah, this is awkward...

Okay, it's been swell!

I love you!

A Real Job!

I have been ushering for the Cornell Cinema since around the second half of first semester, and was just giving up hope of acquiring a payed position at the theater, when, low and behold, I got an email from the cinema manager informing me of a box office position that has just opened up.  He asked if I was interested, and I had to restrain from responding with HECK YES!  So, starting next week, I will be working, as a paid employee, at the Cornell Cinema.  YAY!

So far, this semester is going wonderfully.  I got started on my work early, and am now right on schedule with homework and reading, maybe even a little bit ahead.  I've been spending a lot of time with my fellow chorus members, and last weekend we had two 3 hour and one 4 hour rehearsals.  I've been keeping on track with my Weight Watchers points, and I even went to the gym on Monday with a friend.

I'm feeling pretty great right now.  I will admit, I should probably be working on some homework that is due tomorrow.  However, instead of having an entire assignment left to do (as was was usual last semester the night before homework was due) I only have two small sections of problems left.  Then I think I'll read some of my Chemistry and Math textbooks, just to be prepared for tomorrow's lectures, and I'll be all set!

I also feel great because I posted another video on YouTube today, and I rather like this one.  It took some time, and I think it's one of my best yet.

I have a meeting on Tuesday with Engineering advising regarding my possible transfer to Arts & Sciences.  Hopefully they'll let me know what I need to do to transfer, what my chances are of being accepted with my grades from last semester, and who I can talk to within arts that will help me with this process.  I'm still thinking of film, but it's not definite.  I'll get back to you.

Oh, I almost forgot to mention, I got my hairs cut!  It's a bit past shoulder length, and I now have some bangs.  I quite like it, and I've gotten a lot of compliments.  All in all, I'm feeling just splendid!  And I hope you are too =D

Okay, well, I'm off!

It's been swell!

School?

I am back at school now.  This is a very good thing for a lot of reasons, like spending time with awesome friends, the delicious food here at Cornell, and retuning to the awesome community that is chorus.  However, there are also some not so great things about being back at school.  I've got quite the schedule this semester, and although I will be dropping one class (not sure which yet), it will still require a lot of work.  In order to succeed this semester, I am going to have to follow a tight schedule to keep me on task, because I have ADD, and last semester was just shy of a nightmare (academically that is.  I quite enjoyed myself in general).  So, while I know school will be great in some ways, I can't help wishing I had just a LITTLE more time at home.

The summer program in Europe that I mentioned is a very strong possibility.  I emailed the man in charge, and he said he thinks I would be a good candidate for it.  I just have to wait for the applications to come around, apply, and see how that goes.  I also have to decide which program I want to do (or decide to do both).  The first one, which goes from May 26th to July 3rd, begins in Dublin and moves to Paris, Barcelona, and Marseille, and the second runs July 4th to August 1st and takes place in Rome.  I thought the second one would be more relevant to me, but the guy suggested doing either.  I really love how the first involves so many different cities, all of which I've never been to, so now I'm leaning more towards that one.

I would also love to do a bit of traveling afterwards, and of course that would have to be in England.  I mean, I'm in love with the place and I haven't even been there.  I think I should see if it's as great as I think it is, ya know?

So, summer traveling is a very very likely possibility, which makes me very happy and gives me something to work towards.

And now, I will look into my classes to see if there's anything I can do to get ahead.

It's been dandy!

I was born
I was born to be with you
in this space and time
after that
and ever after

My phone is officially a lost cause.  We happened to have a brand new phone sitting around the house, same as my phone but green instead of blue, and that is now my phone.  I'm glad to have the replacement, but I will honestly miss the other one.  I loved my blue phone.  

I am leaving for Cornell TOMORROW! Woooaaahhhh!!! I'm kinda scared.  I'm thinking about dropping a class to lighten my load, but I want to talk to my advisor first, so we'll see how that goes.

There's a program with Cornell over the summer that focuses on theater, film, and dance, and since I've been very interested in film lately, I thought it might be a good idea.  Best part?  It takes place in ROME!  HOLY FREAKING FISH STICKS!  I'm not yet sure if I will be doing it, but it's definitely a strong possibility.  We'll see how that goes.

Look what I got in the mail a few days ago:

=D (although, I'm kinda upset the picture is reversed. Darn photobooth)

That's all I got to say for now.  I'm gonna make this a very regular thing, and hopefully share this with some of my friends, ya know, so that I'm not talking just to myself...

I LOVE YOU, you lovely, lovely person

Back to school or something

I have two days left here at home, and then I'll be heading back to Cornell for another semester of doom...I mean, engineering.  I'm having issues deciding what I want to study, but I think I've found a potential major.  I am seriously thinking about majoring in film.  I mean, film has always been a significant part of my life, as my father is a huge film guy.  For many years he had his own video business and worked part time at a small, local movie theater before eventually purchasing the theater.  That's the one I mentioned in my last blog (obviously.  I mean, one man can't own two theaters...can he?)

I basically grew up in front of a camera, and when I came of a fairly responsible age (10) I received a camcorder for my birthday, and have since had a strange fascination with recording and editing video.

Now, in order to succeed in engineering, you have to really want it, because it is rough.  But from the start, I knew that it wasn't really what I wanted.  Cornell has 7 separate colleges, and when applying, you are allowed to apply to 2 if you so choose.  I had applied to arts & sciences because my plan was originally to study music, and then it changed to math, and then I was rather undecided, but Cornell said they recommended I apply to engineering as well, based on my application.  So, that's the one I got into, and that's the one I'm dying to get out of.

I had an open mind going in, because I've always loved math and physics, and that's reason enough that I'll enjoy engineering, right? WRONG!!  It was rough, and while I did make it through without failing, I received the lowest grades I've ever received...ever.  The grades were understandable, since college is a heck of a lot different than high school, but the whole semester was a struggle because I had to work my butt off for something I really didn't want.

Thus, I have been stressing out lately over what it is I DO want to study.  Physics is still an option, because I actually loved my physics class last semester (despite my B-) and my mother brought up psychology as a possibility, which I thought would be a very interesting field of study.  But lately, I've been leaning towards the film option, because it seems the most like something I wouldn't mind working hard for.

If you asked me what I wanted to do in the future, I would say acting.  Although I haven't had much experience with acting, when I am given the opportunity, I love it.  But I just feel like that's not a possibility, and so I have to pour myself into something I'm half-hearted about.  Oh well, we'll see.  All I can do right now is do my best in the classes I'm taking, find a job and make some money, and pray that God will help me in my decision making and make things clearer to me.

It's been lovely!!

Potential music overload

My cousin's birthday was yesterday, and to celebrate, we all went to a place called just fun that has arcade games, a little indoor playground-type thing, and a few other fun activities for children.  Gonna be honest, I had a LITTLE too much fun there.  Then, to finish off the night with a bang, we stayed the night...at a movie theater!  Let me explain this.  My parents own a small, old fashioned, one screen theater called the Hamburg Palace Theatre.  It is AWESOME!  So last night, I slept in a sleeping bag, on top of a thin mattress, to the sounds of Furry Vengeance (a movie that had absolutely no impact on my life, except that I kinda wanted the time I spent watching it back).  So basically, I'm tired, and I'm in the projection booth of a movie theater.  Be jealous...well, of the second part.

I found my missing pair of pants, but my cell phone was not in the pockets.  This means my phone is still MIA.  I'm hoping to find it today.

In other news, I have an overload of money for iTunes, and I don't know what to spend it on.  The holidays have left me with $170 in iTunes cards (one $50 card was from last year, but it got lost, and was found a few days ago).  So basically, I can purchase whatever music I want, but I already have all the music that I want.  I know over time I'll hear other songs that I want to download and I will slowly but surely go through my cards, but I'm hoping to get some suggestions from my friends and family.

All of this iTunes money proposes a very serious problem:  I currently have less than 1 GB empty on my iPod.  I'm not exactly sure how much music I'll be able to add to it, but with a combination of the cards and the songs from CDs I'll most likely want to upload, I'm gonna need a new iPod.  I knew the 8 GB wasn't gonna be sufficient in the long run.  Poor George, he has served me well the past 2 years.  George is my iPod, by the way...

So now I have a bunch of things I'm saving up for:  a new iPod, a midi keyboard for my macbook, final cut express, and whatever I do this summer (I'm hoping a trip to England).  Now I just gotta find a job on campus...I currently volunteer at the cinema, and while I get to see the movies for free, which is nice, I do not get paid.  I really need to find a PAYING job, heh.  

That's all for now, folks.  See ya next time on fourbackwards's blog!

Oh where oh where could my cell phone be?

Today, my mom decided that I would spend the ENTIRE DAY looking for my cell phone because, well, I lost it.  I have a theory as to where it could be, and this theory brings up another missing item.  It's all just a big mystery case, and I'm going to solve it.  Here's the dealio:

I first noticed my cell phone was missing earlier this week, probably like, Monday or Tuesday.  I had been going without it for about a week before that, but the reason I didn't classify it as lost then was because I THOUGHT I knew where it was.  That whole week I was under the assumption that it was in the pocket of a pair of my pants that was sitting on my bedroom floor.  But alas, we all know what happens when you assume.  So I checked all three pairs on the floor.  Nothing.  I checked everywhere I thought it might be.  Nothing.  So I was stumped, until I realized something else.

Now around the same time I noticed my phone was gone, I also realized that my favorite pair of pants was also missing.  I'm not exactly sure of the last time I wore them, but the last time I REMEMBER wearing them two weeks ago, the day I stayed the night with my aunt and cousins at a hotel.  I would say maybe I left them there, but the sleepover was last minute and I didn't have a change of clothes, so they were the only pair of pants I had, and there is no way I would go pants-less in this weather...

So today, I came to the conclusion that the phone must be in the pocket of that pair of pants.  I remember putting all my jeans in the wash together, except for the pair I was wearing, which must've been said pair, and that day was definitely after the hotel, so wherever I put the pants at the end of that day has somehow lead to where they are now.  And if my new theory is right, wherever the pants are is where the phone is.

So, to figure this out, I've decided to resort to my video camera.  I take lots of video, so I figured I would check the footage to see if I have anything recorded from the last time I wore those pants, to jog my memory as to where I left them when I took them off...geez, I sound like a slut or something.  When I say I don't remember where I took them off, I mean at the end of the day when I put on my pajamas.

Hopefully I will be able to solve this mystery and be able to communicate with the world once more!

It's been swell!!

You just gotta ignite the light
and let it shine
just own the night
like the 4th of July

Buh-buh-buh-braaaaainstorming!

Today is yet another day in my winter break in which I sit at home and do nothing of any particular importance and think of things I could be doing right now.  I decided to blog a little list of some creative-type ideas I have for the future, especially regarding my musical future and my YouTube videos.  There's been some things that I've wanted to create a video about, but I get too caught up in my talking and end up not putting as much into my videos as I was hoping to do, so here are some of my ideas that I still want to carry out:

1)  The unrealistic expectations society has for girls.

Basically, all people are different, and it's not fair that we are taught to believe what we are born with is not beautiful.  I am particularly outraged by expectations for body type/weight and things like eyebrows, makeup, and lip/other facial hair.  Guys say all the time that they want a girl who is confident, but how can you expect them to be confident when the same guys are judging girls on their appearance and labeling them as hot or ugly??  Disgusting.

2)  Awkward dance moves

I often find myself in the middle of awkward situations, and since I'm no good at de-awkward-ifying things, I rely heavily on playing up the awkward and making it comical.  It works...sometimes.  One particular case where this technique comes into play quite often is when I'm at a dance or just dancing around with friends or family.  Sometimes, I can dance decently, but sometimes I just can't, so instead of looking accidentally ridiculous, I have a set of overly awkward dance moves that I pull out when I don't know what else to do.  I thought I would share them with the world...

3)  Montage of 2010

I have a little camcorder that I take EVERYWHERE with me, and as a result, I have lots of footage of things that happened throughout the year, some of which is really funny.  I want to make a little montage of this footage, but I have so much that it wouldn't fit into one video.  Therefore, I thought I would make a few different montages, strategically planned so that there is a common theme among the footage involved in each.  I was thinking maybe like, one of just my brother, one of other members of my family, a holidays one, one of just my Aunt Care, random funny things, and I don't know what else.  The only problem is, a lot of them have sound that I would want included, but some I would be okay with having a song playing in the background.  So yeah, that's a work in progress.

4)  Odd things that I love

Just a list of the strange quirks of me, and the weird things that I love.

5)  Music videos

not sure what songs to use yet, and I gotta do it before I leave, because I need my family for these

6)  5 minutes of nonsense

Something I started when I was about 10 years old.  I just talked in front of a camera for 5 minutes about whatever I felt like talking about, and it was actually quite funny.  I think I'll try it again.

And then, some other, non-video ideas:

1)  Booklet thinger for my ex-roommate Tara

I've already started this, I just need to pull myself together enough to finish

2)  The Lion Sleeps Tonight

I started recording myself doing all the parts to this song on garage band, but I have no way of doing the little bongo drums, or the other drums in the background.  AND last night listening to it, I notice a little bass line that I never noticed before.  Basically, I'm still working on how to portray the non-vocal stuff.

3)  Learn to play guitar

I got a guitar a while back for Christmas, and I really want to play it.  I just don't know how.  So, I'm gonna try and learn, whether it be by taking lessons, watching a tutorial, or getting some sort of book.  I'm going to learn to play guitar.

4) Improve on the piano, and then learn to play songs that I like

pretty self explanatory


So there you have it.

It's been swell!

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
sayin' eyo, gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life
sayin' eyo, baby let's go

So...how do I do this?

Welp, here I am at 12:30 in the morning, typing on my computer while the rest of the house sleeps.  Typical.

I keep thinking "Why did I decide to do this?" but I know the reason: I talk to much for normal conversation, and I talk to much for vlogging, so this is my last resort.  Seriously though, I struggle to cut down 20 minutes of video to a length that won't bore to death the 4 people who watch my videos (all of whom are close friends).  I posted a video the other day that was 7 and 3/4 minutes long, because there was no way possible to trim it down to fit my 2-4.5 minutes rule (because any longer than that and you lose your audience...or at least that's what I assume).

So, what to write, what to write...?  Well, I could write about my day I suppose.

I woke up at 11:30, bummed around a bit, ate some food, took a shower, and went to the doctors because I'm a mess.  At least I thought I was.  The doctor basically told me that I might have a slight sinus infection, and everything else I mentioned was nothing.  Yeah, lovely.

I wanted to talk more in depth about me and my mom joining weight watchers...again.  The points system is different than it used to be, and I am a fan of the new system.  Today I ate an amazing sandwich and a friut smoothie for just 5 points, which was DELISH (like delicious, without the ous) and a tasty and quite satisfying dinner.  After all this, I still had 9 points left.  Basically, they re-evaluated everything based on how the body processes different foods, so now, all fresh fruit and most veggies are no points. Oh sorry, pointsPLUS.  I really think this will help me because I tend to go for foods that are high in fat, and rarely eat veggies of my own choice.  However, today, I found myself actually wanting to eat the vegetables because I knew I wouldn't have to write it down. So basically, I'll lose weight because of my own laziness...ironic.

So, I leave for Cornell next Thursday, and honestly, I don't want to go back.  I'm stuck in Engineering right now because I missed the transfer deadline, so I'll be taking classes that I DON'T need and that I DON'T want to take.  But I guess there's really nothing I can do except do my best in these classes and figure out what I want to instead of engineering. Hmph, I've gotta figure that out soon.

Interesting thinger I'd like to point out.  About 7 years ago, I read the first three Harry Potter books (probably over the course of a year, since I was a SLOW reader) and when I began the fourth, I just never finished.  I mean, I was only 11, and that book is big.  I guess I was just intimidated.  Now, I say why this random information is relevant.  I decided that I really needed to go back and read all of the books, because I mean, I had to see what all the hype was about, so I told myself that I would read as much of the series as I could over winter break and...I ACTUALLY followed through!  I'm now about a third through Goblet of Fire, which is farther than I made it last time.  And as for my verdict thus far, umm...WHY DID I WAIT THIS LONG TO READ THESE BOOKS?!??? Holy pocket lint, I love Harry Potter.  I really REALLY want to go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal Studios.

Speaking of places I really want to go to...I have a BIT of an obsession with everything from England.  I mean, not really EVERYTHING, but my favorite band is from England, and so is my second favorite band, I LOVE English accents, I love English YouTubers...umm, I can't think of anything else right now, but honestly, I've wanted to go to England for like, 2 years now, and I really really want to either study there this summer, or just plan a trip for the summer.  But it has to be this summer, I can't wait any longer.

Speaking of things that can't get any longer, would ya' look at the length of this blog post???

Okay, well, peace out.  Talk to you later, goodbye, it's been swell, or something...

It's been great, dandy, swell, spiffy, lovely, snazzy

dunno which one I like best.  I'll figure it out as I go

OKAY BYE FOR REAL THIS TIME!